The movie begins with Jane narrating about her life from her birth,
to her first birthday and even her first day of kindergarten. Then the
film jumps to Jane at age 15, starting her first day of high school.
Although Jane appears to be happy and a normal teenage girl to her
friends and family, inside she's feeling alone and different. Her
feelings grow more confusing, when a new girl arrives named Taylor
(played by Alicia Lagano) who Jane sees (and says in a voice over) as
"different, smarter, wiser." She then continues to say in the voice over
that "maybe because she wasn't from here or maybe it was just her. I'm
going to go with the last one, because she ended up changing my life."
The two become friends, innocently enough at first by Jane helping
her get caught up in class. Eventually Jane's feelings start to become a
little more clearer and she realizes that she has a crush on Taylor.
Because of Taylor's abusive home life, she misses school for the next
few days, causing Jane to worry about her and seek her out. When
Taylor's mother starts yelling at her for being at the door, Taylor
tells Jane to leave and that she'll be fine. Worried about her friend
and struggling with figuring herself out, Jane starts to become
withdrawn from her parents, who are starting to grow concerned.
When Jane's mother, Janice, finally tries to talk about what's been
going on, they're interrupted by Jane's father coming in, and announcing
that Taylor has come for a visit. After they're left alone by Jane's
parents, the two begin to talk and Taylor confesses about her home life
and how scared she is sometimes. Jane, wanting to be comforting, brushes
Taylor's hair away from her cheek and then puts her hand there. Taylor
takes this as a sign and then two share their first kiss. In a voice
over, Jane wonders to herself if kissing Taylor made her gay and that at
the time, she convinced herself that "it was just a phase." She then
goes on to say that "it was the first time I ever felt connected to
someone." After that, the two become an official couple.
Janice does not like Taylor, saying that she believes she's a bad
influence on Jane, because Jane isn't hanging out with her old friends
anymore and doesn't spend enough time with the family, because she's
always with Taylor. A while later, Taylor invites Jane over to her
house, because her mother is going to be out of town. Despite being
terrified of her feelings, Jane and Taylor have sex for the first time.
The next day at school, Jane tells Taylor that "it was a mistake" and
that she's not gay. Taylor says it's not about being gay, it's about
being with the person you want to be with. Hurt, Taylor then leaves and
breaks up with Jane.
With Taylor gone, Jane is more withdrawn and heartbroken. When she
finally gets over her confusion, she asks Taylor for a second chance,
but Taylor says no, saying that she only wants to be with someone who
wants to be with her. Distraught, Jane begins to cry and is then
confronted by her English teacher/guidance counselor Ms. Walcott
(Rowan). Ms. Walcott takes Jane into her office and with some gentle
encouraging, Jane confesses that she had sex with someone for the first
time and about the situation with Taylor, but she's careful to not
specifically say who it was and instead uses such euphemisms as
"they're" and "this person."
Ms. Walcott then suggests that Jane write Taylor a note to express
how she feels. Jane does and a few days later, Taylor shows up at her
house, while Jane is babysitting
her brother when her parents are out. Thinking her brother is asleep on
the couch, Jane takes Taylor up to her room so they can talk and they
eventually reconcile and kiss, not knowing that Jane's brother is
watching them through her partially open bedroom door.
Word later gets around about Jane and Taylor, after her brother tells
a friend in his class, who just happens to be the younger brother of
one of Jane's old friends, whom she dumped for Taylor. Then one night
after dinner, Janice gets an anonymous phone call from someone asking if
she knows her daughter is a lesbian. Not knowing what to do, Jane's
parents confront her about it and ask if it's true. Fearing that her
parents will hate her, Jane lies about it and says that she and Taylor
were just practicing, which is what her father assumes they were doing.
Confused and consumed with guilt for lying to her parents about her
relationship, Jane seeks advice from her mother's gay friend Jimmy
(RuPaul) and comes out to him. Jimmy explains that it will get easier
and that when the time is right, she'll tell her parents the truth.
Eventually the harassment and name calling gets too much for Jane and
one night at dinner when her younger brother calls Taylor a dyke, Jane
attacks him by pulling him across the dining room table and hitting him.
When her parents try to assure her that it's just gossip and that it'll
go away, Jane confesses that it's not just gossip and comes out to her
parents.
Hurt, shocked and angry, both her parents initially react badly to
it, assuming that they had done something wrong and deciding that they
will do whatever it takes to make their daughter's life better for her,
by convincing her she's not gay. They forbid Jane from seeing Taylor and
send her to therapy, because she refuses to talk with them about it and
they feel it's the only way to "fix" the situation. Therapy proves
useless and Jane and Taylor still continue to see each other, even going
as far as sneaking out to a
gay bar,
which Jane gets grounded for when she comes home at 4 AM. Soon, the
sneaking around and drama becomes too much for Taylor and she breaks up
with Jane.
Ms. Walcott, who happened to have been by, stops to comfort Jane
after she sees her crying. She then explains to Jane that it will get
better and that she understands what she's going through. At first Jane
doesn't believe her, but then Ms. Walcott comes out to her and tells her
the story of the first time she fell in love with a girl. Jane starts
to feel better, until she's confronted by her old friends one day at
school, and when their teasing becomes too much, Jane attacks one of the
girls, which she's suspended for.
After her mother talks with the principal, on their way out of the
high school, a group of boys make homophobic remarks about Jane in front
of her mother, who is hurt by the comments. Jane sarcastically says she
doesn't know why her mother even cares that they said something,
because she acts just like them. At home, Janice tries to confront her
daughter about what she said at the school. In a rant about gay people
being normal, Jane unintentionally outs her teacher.
Believing that Ms. Walcott is the reason behind Jane behaving the way
she has been, Janice leaves to confront her. Jane beings to sob and
begs her mother not to hurt Ms. Walcott, but she doesn't listen and
leaves anyway, causing Jane to collapse and sob into her father's arms.
Janice confronts Ms. Walcott at the school, threatening to go to the
school board if she doesn't stay away from her daughter.
Later on at home, Jane's parents announce that they feel sending her
away to boarding school will be the best way to handle the situation,
because they're at a loss for what to do. Jane runs away to her
teacher's house, where she apologizes for outing her and tells her that
she's considered suicide because she can't stand having her parents hate
her so much.
Knowing exactly how she feels, Ms. Walcott goes to Jane's parents and
tells them what Jane had told her and what her experiences were like
growing up being a lesbian. Jane's parents eventually realize that they
need to do something or they'll lose their daughter forever and go with
Ms. Walcott back to her home. Janice and Jane talk and the two
reconcile, though their relationship is still strained. In an attempt to
make her mother more comfortable with things, Jane takes her to a PFLAG (Parents, Families and Friends of Lesbians and Gays)
meeting, where they hear a story from another mother whose situation
mirrored their own. Janice continues to go to the meetings, despite
still being uncomfortable with things and still being unable to admit
that her daughter is a lesbian.
When it comes time for a pride rally, Janice announces at dinner that
she's not going to go, because she's still not ready, which obviously
hurts Jane. Later that night, Janice apologizes and says she's trying,
but Jane says that accepting her in private isn't enough. Jane later
attends the rally with her father, brother, Jimmy and another friend of
her mother's and are eventually joined by Ms. Walcott and her partner.
At the very end of the movie, when it's time for the PFLAG parents from
Janice's group to speak, Jane looks around at the crowd and sees her
mother coming towards her.
Director:
Lee Rose
Stars:
Stockard Channing,
Ellen Muth,
Kelly Rowan
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